Greetings from Japan!

One of my very favorite people is in Japan right now... right here, in fact.
And just as I mentioned earlier... you can have long distance best friends... we have had no contact at all for about 3 years,
and now we are back in touch, just like that. Easy as pie. We still love each other just the same.

In fact, she has invited me to stay with her in Europe for awhile... but first she has to finish her holiday in Tokyo and go to Venezuela in July for true love.

I love all of my friends.

G is one of the best.

What is a Best Friend?

I looked up the definition of "best friend" today in the dictionary, but the only thing it had to offer was the definition of a "best man".

So what is a best friend?
I feel like I have many good friends. Probably could go with "best friends"...
Is a best friend supposed to be your one and only best friend? Or can you have, like old best friends who get married, and their spouse becomes their new best friend, which relegates you to the ranks of good or close friend?

Sometimes you have to make a new best friend.

How do you define best friend?

A good friend, a close friend recently explained to me, the importance of defining terms, for terms can be fluid and hold different meanings for different people.

To ME:
A best friend will tell you the truth, always and without a doubt, it is like a pact.
Best friends can go for days and days, weeks and weeks, months even, without contact, and pick up right where they left off when they do connect again. Best friends understand one another. But usually, best friends like to stay in close touch.

Best friends will care for you, pick you up when you are down and keep you company when you are ill.

Being a best friend means giving without take. Having a best friend means giving back in special ways without expectations.

Best friends are what everyone has before they have boyfriends or girlfriends.

Best friends KNOW you, you reveal your selves to one another, it is an intimacy that creates a bond that lasts a long time.

Best friends set boundaries sometimes, to keep the friendship together.

I think, that sometimes, you can have more than one best friend at a time. And then, occasionally, and for an undefined period of time, a new best friend can step in and make you realize there is only one.

So, a best friend can be a boyfriend or girlfriend, best friends can be in a circle, far apart, or inseparable. A best friend can be long term, or new and fresh.

No wonder there is no definition in the dictionary!

What's your definition of a best friend?

MOMMY

*ckick to ENLARGE image*

When we stop saying Mommy, and start calling her Mom.... I think that is when we become fully aware of the Mother's Day directive: Make her understand that you are thankful, in whatever way that holds true for you. I have a friend whose mother is a crack addict. The only time he sees her is when she is in need. She cooked breakfast for him once, he remembered, the day she got out of jail. That's what he has to be thankful for, brcause he remembers getting hugged that day too.

Anyways,

My mother:

"Knows the Lord."
She loves the color purple, and can dig anything on the maroon to indigo spectrum. It makes her wildly happy.
Man, I need to write my Mom a purple poem, don't I? Like my pink one from a couple of months ago...

Anyways,

She will keep several small items ready to give at any moment, and declares them to be "extra presents". "I have extra presents if you need them!" she will say at Christmastime... in case we forgot someone. She almost always...99.5% of the time, brings me a little something everytime I see her.
Except there was this one time,
when she was just released from the hospital see,
had had surgery here in my town (on account of the University hospital being here).
She had a tumor removed from her breast...(that'l happen when you breast feed three kids).
So she gets released right?
Uderwent surgery with general anesthetic, and no pain meds, none.
Was going to buy an organic turkey as it was literally two days before Thanksgiving, and then drive home,
But she stopped by my place to ask if she could crash on the couch.
She was feeling weak.
Didn't want to drive the hour and a half to her city.
Had to be propped up, so the couch was her preference.
She did not have a gift for me that day.
But last week, it was two rolls of paper towels.

My Mom gets migraines too, but she rarely ever ever takes medicine. Hers are about 50% as bad as mine, but that is still narcotic territory for most.

Mom went back to school after the divorce...a year at community college after we road tripped back to Yankeeville from Houston. Then, she transferred to my University, and graduated continuing on to obtain her medical degree, which she got in three years. (she went to classes in the summer). All this she did while on welfare with three kids. We had nothing. At all. But she told us she loved us every chance she got. She gave everything to us, and kept exactly nothing for herself. I remember we got to go to McDonald's once a month, we could have whatever we wanted, but she always had a small black coffee. "It's all I want." she would say if i asked why.

She alway always managed to get a place to live in the best possible school districts. She was determined. For awile, I was one of the kids who bussed for over an hour to go to the magnet school.

Mom also made damn sure, while we were in vitro and as young kids, that she made EVERYTHING from scratch. We always had vitamins to take and protein shakes to drink. She was possibly obsessed with seeing that we recieved optimum nutrition from conception to as long as money would allow.
To this day, ghetto tuna casserole is my ultimate comfort food. Even broke as hell, we had it covered nutritionwise.

Somehow during that time, she managed to get me a few horesback lessons pro bono or whatever, donated.

She ended up petitioning for money to match a partial scholarship for my mddle brother because he was getting detention for correcting his teachers mistakes (usually in math) and they were accusing him of stealing exams. (he always got 100%) So she pulled him out and enrolled him in a new school for the gifted and talented, which is now used as a national template.

When my youngest brother was around the same age as I was for the riding lessons, and Adam was when he ended up in the private school, She got my baby brother piano lessons (which he refused on the grounds that they were boring) and so she just bought him a keyboard as he had already taught himself to play Phil Collins songs from hearing them on the radio a few times. After he got his own board, he would amuse himself by laying underneath the keyboard, crossing his hands, and playing them that way.

I guess all those everloving vitamins and protein shakes made a difference. We all turned out pretty damn good.

Mom, now owns her own farm (no animals, just a broke down cat). She is one of my best friends, because she listens, and hears me when I talk. But more than that, she believes everything I tell her. She is my fan. I know I can trust her, and that she will not tell me I am blowing her mind. We can talk about anything, and most often, when I bring up some kooky thing like the Annunaki, she has at least heard of it, and validates my thought process. I do not know how many mothers are out there like her, maybe it's the majority... but to me, today, she is exceptional.



Ghetto tuna casserole:

Box of mac-n-cheese
can of cream of mushroom soup
can of tuna
can of peas
chopped celery and onion
mix all ingredients, adding peas last.

Does your Soul, URGE?

Remember, to reduce your number to a single digit, just add the two numbers together.
A 20 becomes a 2
a 16 becomes a 7...etc.

My reduced soul number is a 2.
Even though I don't know your real names, it would be cool if you commented on what your soul number is......
Remember to add the vowels of your first, middle, and last name together:

Here is an email I received from numerology dot com (i was bored, so I signed up)

In the last newsletter, we introduced you to the concept of
the Soul Urge number, which is constructed from the vowels
of your name. As a bit of a refresher here is the chart
that tells you how to calculate this number which reveals
the passions that feed your spirit.

A 1
E 5
I 9
O 6
U 3

Only count the value of the vowels in your name and add them
together and reduce to a single digit as usual to calculate
your soul number.

Here are the interpretations.

Soul Urge #1

Your soul urge is to be the best. As you believe you are
directly connected to a higher power you just can't bear it
when you let yourself and others down. In your universe you
are the sun and everything and everybody else rotates around
you. You live to be the center of attention. One of your
soul lessons might be to recognize that "to rule is truly to
serve."

Soul Urge #2

Your soul urge is to be admired and loved by all. The height
of personal gratification for you is to be desired by a
special someone. You have an enormous faith in other people
and if they do let you down you tend to behave, as it is the
end of the world. One of your soul challenges is to realize
that only God is perfect and others are not god-like in
their actions.

Soul Urge #3

Your soul urge is about the cultivation and expression of
your personality. Usually this energy manifests as a great
achievement in the theatrical or artistic world. You shine
at any kind of activity that involves public performance
including acting, singing or politics. You desire to be
admired for your craft and one of your soul challenges might
be to recognize that there will always be a critic.

Soul Urge #4

Stability, beauty and order satiate your soul. You find a
Zen-like satisfaction in performing the simplest of
repetitive chores as you feel closest to God when you are
restoring harmony to unbalanced situations. You are a
perfectionist that loves art and design. One of the
challenges of your number is that sometimes others don't
understand your need for everything to be perfect and see
you as controlling.

Soul Urge #5

Change fuels the fires of your inner passions. You have an
inquisitive mind and a thirst for adventure that is only
slaked by the collecting of unusual experiences and plenty
of travel. You appreciate the fact that life is short and
are bound and determined to make the most of every minute
you have on this earth. One of the challenges of this soul
number is setting down real roots and foundations in life.


Soul Urge #6

Your soul urge is to nurture and take care of others. You
love people and believe the greatest expression of your
inner divinity is through teaching and guidance. You are
happiest when you see the positive results of your influence
blossom in other people. However, you also have a tendency
to become very attached to a perceived soulmate. One of your
challenges is to learn to "let go" when relationships end.

Soul Urge #7

The highest calling of your soul is to learn about
everything scientific and esoteric. It is knowledge that
feeds your soul. You love to read and subjects such as
history, science, metaphysics, physics, archaeology and
religion fuel your rich imagination with inspiration and
ideas. Many of you are geniuses and because of this one of
the challenges of your number is to be understood by a
stupid world.

Soul Urge #8

Your soul urge is to "go forth and multiply" especially when
it comes to family dynasties and aggregating wealth. The
highest expression of your soul urge number is when you are
in power and improving the lives of those that work for you
or love you. You support anything that brings beauty,
meaning and profit to the world. The challenge of this
number is to realize that "money isn't everything."


Soul Urge #9

The highest expression of your soul's urge is to connect in
a mystical way with others. Although your aspirations are
lofty, you are also a humanitarian who is often gifted with
a sharp intuition and keen analytical skills. Your faith in
yourself, god and the future is so strong that you live by
your convictions. Your challenge in life is to be understood
as more than a fanatic or flake by others who may not
understand your idealism.


Soul Urge #11

Your soul's purpose is to manifest ideals into reality; Your
highest calling is to become the master of a religion or of
a spiritual realm. You are the ultimate seeker of truth and
will go to any lengths to find a spiritual teacher or guru.
This search often leads you on a path that is full of many
pitfalls and disappointments as you realize that one
spiritual system doesn't work for you or that a guru or
teacher is only human after all.


Soul Urge #22

You have the highest soul calling of all of the numbers, as
it is the call to transform the world permanently and for
the better. Usually you are born with all of the tools that
you need to accomplish this including a stable personality,
intelligence, courage and charisma. Perhaps the most healing
thing for your soul is simply to read out loud the words of
ancient texts as these writings resonate very strongly with
the noblest aspirations of your higher self.

Thanks Puppy!!

infinitesimal a. k. a. chaos bloem, infi, and vanille loaded up with jewels and flowers so richly deserved
Thanks to:

Doggie-Style (K9)

A gift

One year, for Christmas, my brother gave gifts. Adam does not usually give presents. He will be there when you need him, and is very kind and honest, but the giving of gifts is just not his thing. The year, he did give Christmas presents to everyone and he said it made him feel really good... but in the long run, did not have the money to do it every year (I feel ya bro!) And so, the following year, he wrote out a greeting card to every family member. My Dad, after reading his, started to cry. "You Asshole!" he said in a broken voice, as everyone was silent around him. My Dad is a rock and roll kind of guy.

This is what mine said:


Infinitesimal,

You have a spirit and determination, and personality, that continually amaze me.
Where anyone else would give up because the way is too hard, you set your jaw, get to work, and get things done.
For me, when life seems impossible, and I don't know how to move forward, it helps me to think of you, and how you might react.
It's a powerful gift, and I don't know if you know you've given it to me.
I hope that one day, I can do something as meaningful and helpful for you.
Until that point, always remember that I love you, and I'll do anything I can to support you, as you've done for me so often in the past.
Merry Christmas,
sister dear.